So there is a saying here in Seminary that you "Don't Drink the Water" unless you want a little one. When we came to visit Southeastern we met an older man who works for the Seminary and he was the first to give us this advice to whitch I made him stop in his tracks as I replied, "Well I need a gallon of that water!" And apparently he is right, there is something in the water!!
A little over a year ago I went on my lunch break from work to wander around Target for the hr. I had of freedom from filing papers and I wandered by the ilea with pregnancy test and picked one up for I had a few "funny feelings" and was a little "late". After I got home though I kind of just threw it under the sink and forgot about it because many times before I had picked up those early pregnancy test and they had been very disappointing. My husband, Richard, and I had been "trying" to have a baby for almost 5 years at this point and had done many "tests" with different doctors only to have them all tell us they could not find a reason for us not getting pregnant and the only option we had was invetro. So I had come to the idea that this was never going to happen for me and we had made plans to get through Seminary and adopt once Richard had a good job. So a few weeks later I had a dream I was pregnant and then got up in the middle of the night just wondering and remembered I had bought the preggo test a few weeks before so I slipped out of bed and waited... I will never forget as I reluctantly looked at the test and yelled out and then jumped on the bed waking Richard with the news...
Caroline Joy is my little 4 month old... and she is our Joy! She is truly a blessing that has been given to us from the Lord!!
It seems that now I have been surrounded by women that are feeling the same frustrations that I felt; I can only tell you that I am praying for you! I remember people trying to encourage me saying things like... "Just be patient... God will give you your baby in His time when you are not trying." Yes, God had His perfect time for us, but that is not a good thing to say because you immediately start arguing with that person in your head saying... "you don't know that... what if I never have a child!!" or people will say "We have been trying for two months now, I sooo know how you feel!" WHATEVER is what I would be yelling in my head with a little smile on my face. So to my dear friends that are longing for their little blessing... I am praying hard for you and when you need a friend to just listen to your frustrations know that I am here for you and I hope that my testimony of what God has done in our lives will encourage you that God does indeed know the desires of your heart.
On one of the many sleepless nights I have recently had I was rocking CJ and thinking of how much I love this little child who only eats, sleeps... and well you know and sweetly heard God whisper to me how much more He loves me, his child, and wants to give me the best!
We still plan to adopt when we are out of Seminary and now we filter our water! :)
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